Thursday, February 25, 2010
Looks like it has been quite long since i update my blog...for those who will come see my blog... i thanks for ur concern and support~~~hmmm... recently quite down...on jan i tendered my resignation... but after tat i took back...for 2 reasons... 1st is i have not found a job yet... 2nd is im given an increment by my company president... but recommedation is thru GM... but im happy tat the company is recognising my capability and contributions towards the company.. for the past 1 yr i oso did my best for the company...but now im slacking... coz things over here is getting worse 2 worse...and i dun like... i can carry on working here... but i cant find any motivation anymore...my internal locus of control now is zero... now is all due to exertnal locus of control...the increment does not change any of my mindset...went 2 a big company for interview and i failed the interview...feeling quite down... and very disappointed with myself oso coz after thinking i realise i did not sell myself well... hmmm... but regret will not change anything... and... recently i dooo something silly oso... after thinking... i not sure whether i have done the rite thing... after thinking... i shld not dooo that as it might let ppl get the wrong idea... i think its bcoz i yearn for something for very long le... still gonna wait for a year for it 2 appear... can i take it... i have 2 wait... and i have faith... if anyone cant understand its ok... i dun wish 2 elaborate more either...whereas for sch... i seems 2b slack oso... alot of things goin on in my mind... would like 2 thx qiang for being a great buddy of mine and all this while has been sharing all my joy and sorrow with him... its really hard 2 find someone who u enjoy company with even when the both of u are quiet... we have alot of common thinking and i realli appreaciate that... though human is an ever changing creature... but till now... u are still my best buddy...
pen at 11:38 PM
