Monday, November 16, 2009
Last sat went 4 foot massage and the massager said that my chest area is feeling kind of cramp... and its true... last few weeks the work has keep trapping in my chest and i feel hard 2 breathe though...going 2 slp... will continue tml~~~
pen at 9:58 PM
Thursday, November 12, 2009
Recently i faced alot of problems... and not convienent to post at FB due to i added some people...even here wat i say oso muz be discrete... but i will still say most of the things...working in an environment i will be facing 5 types of network actors...these 5 network actors i cannot state who are they...but they are people in the environment who will either affect my work or being affected by my work...recently i wan 2 find ppl 2 chill out and relax... but... suddenly those ppl who are close 2 me cant meet me...i find out and realise i need 2 expand my network of frenz and buddy... i dun need ppl 2 listen 2 my complain...but accompany me gooo out will dooo... need 2 unwind...dunno why recently kinda hard 2 find ppl...today when reach home i stone at the sofa doing nothing... after that stone at the toliet bowl before going to bathe...regarding the problem that i faced...among the 5 network actors... 4 network actors totally are not supportive...According to Hersey-Blanchard Situaional Leadership Theory... What i get is the delegating (not telling, selling or participating) but i dont mind...According to Hertzberg 2 Factor Theory... Hygiene Factors are "Supervision, Relationship with Colleagues, Job Security and Wages" are met... However achieving them will lead to netural (neither satisfaction nor dissatisfaction) Motivator Factors are "Sense of Achievement, Recognition and Responsibility" are not met...Currently what is most suitable to illustrate in my situation are listed below:According to Vroom's Expectancy Theory... The Valence of Outcome is outrageous... Therefore Expectancy and Instrumentality is negative...There are changes and followers shows nooo commitment and compliance but resistance due to incompatible vision and values...It is not only affecting my work but also my personal life...
pen at 8:08 PM
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
Its not about the work load... It abt the ppl... and... I have lost my motivation...Im a self-driven person... but this time... Im on the verge of suffocation...What is worse is my exam is coming...and this greatly affects me... this 2 days not much motivation and concentration 2 study...im trying my best and i have 2 take it down my strips...i will dooo it... but not sure how much more i can take...is this that far i can gooo... i doubt sooo... but sometimes... cant find anyone 2 tok 2...all the stress burden in myself can be quite tough 2~~~
pen at 9:46 PM
Sunday, September 6, 2009
how am i feeling now???
with regards 2 my previous post...
my result actually is Distinction level... with this assignment it pull down my whole grade...
i have written 2 SIM - RMIT for a remark by another lecturer..
though i noe quite impossible but i have done my part..
even if they dun allow...
i will also accept with the fact...
as for work... on Fri 4 Sep... i went 2 boat quay 2 drink with one of my ex army friend...
this is the 1st time in life i drink until that state...
a state where i was sooo high...
i noe wat im doing... but i cant control wat i talk... haha...
i asked my frenz 6 times where are we...
i saw 2 guys wanna fight but i dunno why ppl shld fight...
i dunno why we need $_$
i dunno how much i need 2 gooo home...
i dunno alot of things... haha... during that time... time realli passes sooo slow...
and i keep talking 2 remind myself 2 keep myself awake...
but miracle is i manage 2 gooo back home on my own...
haha...
as for today... i slpet till 1:33pm... i myself quite shock also coz i seldom slp till sooo late...
think im tired coz of fri drinking and sat gooo jurong safra sing ktv...
my feeling now is nooo feeling...
bcoz i dun wan 2 think of anything...
pen at 6:22 PM
Thursday, September 3, 2009
hai... *take a deep breath* hai...
1st thing i wan 2 thanks kerwin aka win and yongqiang aka qiang for your console...
been sooo many years of buddies... know when i got problem give me advise and console me...
especially win... u urself got problems le... still call me and ask abt me...
im quite touched... really... buddies for sooo long... and both of u are still my best buddies...
mostly abt work stuff... i dun wish 2 comment here...
but... for those who know the whole stories...
its a big big thing for me that i cant even react or breathe...
its sooo big a problem... anyone pls raise up your hand if u know in front is a pool of shit and u still will jump inside...
that is my situation now...
there is always opportunity for times like this... and i myself know it...
but... if u know my situation... u will understand wat i mean...
b4 opportunity start... i have already sink inside the pool of shit...
to have opportunity i need 2 have good support... sooo how can i rise and shine when i cant find any opportunity...
if i cant find opportunity... how can i survive... and u are pushing me from the top... thx man... and this is wat u always dooo... that is why even at crisis our turnover rate still sooo high...
to cover ur backside... sooo im the one down there...
sooo have u think and plan carefully... NOOO!!!
my previous company i have 6 subordinates under me sooo i know how 2 manage and i know wat are the keys 2 be a successful leader... but... I NEED THE RESOURCES...
WHICH LEADER CAN BE A SUCCESSFUL LEADER WHEN HE HIMSELF BEING A LEADER HAS NOOO SUPPORT...
whereas for studies... i FAIL MY ASSIGNMENT...
THE 1ST TIME IN UNIVERSITY THAT I FAILED...
i got confident in my project but i still fail...
pls dun bullshit and say i will learnt from my mistakes...
becoz im totally confident in wat im doing...
i shld not get this grade... for my whole of uni... this is the worse lecturer i ever seen...
my overall grade for uni is very near to Distinction level...
and this result is pulling me down...
and if the next assignment she fails me again...
i will flunk this module...
IM DOING MY BEST FOR MY STUDIES AND CAREER AND THIS IS WAT I GET...
sooo wat im being promoted... sooo wat im the head...
the best thing is the HR called and say my title for now shld be an executive...
GREAT... they promote me in jul and dun change my title...
all this bad news are driving me crazy...
at this pt of time... i really start 2 see more n more clearly who are those who realli cares for me...
pen at 10:58 PM
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
Why are all these happening now...
pen at 11:04 PM
Friday, August 7, 2009
I have yet to finish my previous post...
but now im posting a new post...
coz this has been running thru my mind recently...
recently... alot of my colleagues are leaving...
some are my buddies... alot of things happened...
alot of people say our job is relax...
on the surface it is...
but they dont know the pressure we are going thru...
though everyone say our job is relax...
nobdoy dares to join my company... haha... sounds ironic rite...
alot of ppl surrounding me are thinking of resign...
alot of negative thoughts ard me...
alot of things happened also...
of coz including me... sometimes it even affect my slp...
not because i cant slp but because of something crop up and i have 2 attend in the middle of the nite...
somemore i still got my part time studies...
even my direct boss is thinking of quitting and tell me 2 quit if i found a job i like...
hmmm... yah... the top management thinks abt revenue... and its true...
if u are worthless to a company... during crisis... u will be asked 2 leave...
that is why my previous post is impt...
after saying sooo much i oso have not touch on my stories yet... haha...
TO BE CONTINUED~~~
pen at 8:41 PM
